thoughts/pictures

So ive been thinking a lot about what im going to do with my life. I guess I really enjoy photography, and I think it would be really nice to make a career out of that. however, it seems that everyone else i know that are photographers are...i dont know, all wrapped up in technique. and i honestly dont know anything about any of that. and everyone has fancy cameras, with fancy lenses...and i dont know anything about that. i stick to my little camera, and it seems to work just fine for me. i would love to have that job though. because i would love to travel the world. Like James Stewart's job in Rear Window. I want to have adventures like he talked about in that movie.

and then, i dont really think im good enough at it to even make it a career. sometimes i feel bad about this, because what i've always wanted to do, my entire life, is make movies. and i feel like im completely ignoring that, and not doing anything to make it happen. but listening to the technical stuff about that kind of job...i dont really understand any of it, and it's all pretty intimidating. i really dont think i have the mental capacity to handle all of that responsibility.

but anyway...so all that's been on my mind lately. i think maybe i'll make a list of goals that i want to acchieve by the time im like, idk, 25?

ehh.
so anyway...on a more cheerful note, my brother and his girlfriend and her daughter are here for a few days. they got here like 3 hours ago, and already it's been hilarious times.


this is my kitty! she doesnt like me very much, and im pretty sure she has mental issues. but she's hella cute.



this is my brother Ian, doing hilarious things to a gigantic tree stump on the beach.



the sky looks pretty here!



im not sure what this was. it was right below the road...but it looks cool.



this is the view across the water, towards where my house is. it's so mountainous here!