im fixing a hole where the rain gets in.

i'm slowly coming to the conclusion that the only thing i am even remotely good at is taking photographs. i have an odd relationship with taking photos. it's the only thing i do on a semi-regular basis that makes me feel alright, kind of. it's the kind of thing where half of me feels like an a-hole, while the other half really, really enjoys doing it.

a part of me is always suspicious that if people are around watching me taking pictures, they're thinking, "look at her. thinks she's a fuckin' photographer. doesnt even have a real camera. fuckin' myspace-addled teenager. the state of youth these days...."

and even if nobody ever thinks that, i think they think that, which makes me feel really really terrible. i dont want to come off as a ponce, because i am not one.

but im starting to accept that i will never get rid of this feeling. half of me will ALWAYS feel like an asshole. but as long as the other half is enjoying itself, who the fuck cares, right?


so with that in mind, i will post some new sunshiney pictures later.